50! – A short story about recovery

Well, it is here and I really wasn’t sure I would live to see the day.  Not only have I lived, but survived and have every intention to thrive. The intent behind this post is to honor recovery, offer hope and share my solution. The work I do as a Nutritional Therapy Practitioner evolves each day and it is leading me to focus on recovering the body, mind and spirit.  In this post, I will share with you the steps I took to recover in hopes that you will find inspiration and the realization that you, my friend, are not alone. I will put it into a “12 step” format to keep it simple and links to where I found help and information.

  1. Began to really notice what sugar, gluten and alcohol were doing to me
  2. Got off  anti depressants
  3. Joined AA, got clean, sober and quit smoking
  4. Sought help through my ND and LMP to address gut issues and stored trauma
  5. Talk therapy wasn’t cutting it so I went to EMDR for trauma work
  6. Elimination diet to recognize how food was affecting my gut and mood
  7. Followed my passion and became an NTP, plus I learned how to eat
  8. Joined OA and got off sugar and gluten
  9. Began working with my instructor (NTP) to heal my body through food and supplements
  10. Debilitating depression, adrenal exhaustion, suicidal ideation and massive sugar came back with a vengeance due to grief over my divorce, loneliness and death in the family
  11. Began a meditation practice-it seemed to be my last hope
  12. Recommitted to OA, no sugar, my NTP and a lot of rest

Throughout most of this time, I experienced bouts debilitating depression and truly believed I was crazy. Tears fill my eyes, it has been so very painful and lonely. To now having recovered is a testament to the power of believing in ourselves, having a little light that won’t blow out and simply saying, “God, please help me” every day. I have dedicated my life to “figuring out”, anyone who knows me, knows this is true!  Many years ago, I said. “My real life is going to begin when I turn 50” and it’s happening!

Now that isn’t to say that I won’t continue to need help, I accept that. Some of the techniques that have benefited me and will remain in my tool kit: EFT, prayer, meditation, step work, gratitude, mirror work, exercise, walking, outreach calls, cooking with beautiful vegetables and asking angels. As an HIP my nervous system is extremely heightened and drains me easily; I have to be mindful not to over-commit or expect too much of myself. My sensitivity can turn my mood on a dime so I am learning how to recognize that, practice self-care and not reach for something to numb with. My meals must be scheduled because my mind requires as much peace as possible.

Two things I would put at the top of my list for healing are spirituality and my NTP.  My body would never have healed from the inside out without supporting my brain and organs through supplements and food sensitivity testing via the Functional Evaluation. Nor would my soul have awakened and shone without prayer and learning about angels. I had to learn how to forgive and love myself through 12 step programs, meditation and self-care. As a recovering codependent and DONM, I am prone to extreme loneliness and isolating therefore, connecting with other’s and finding compassionate friends is another life-line.

If you are attempting to recover from an addiction or seeking any type of healing journey, I would love to be of support to you.  My Purposeful Packages take you to the solution you are looking for through discovering who you are, what your body needs and setting realistic goals. Sometimes, all we need to get started is to be heard, tell our story and go from there. In my opinion, addiction boils down to neglect, abuse, control and suppressed emotions. I offer tools to help you feel your feelings and your body and not have to live in numbness. It is never too late to uncover our soul’s purpose and love the life we live. Thank you for reading this and for all of your love and support.

With deep love and gratitude, Karen

Feel free to book a 30 minute consultation and let’s heal together.

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